Fav pic of me n Shelly Shellz!
So I met a man or should I say he met me. Secretly he made my heart flutter, yet I pretended it didn’t matter. He danced around me with his words, aroused me with his lyrics. The distant intimacy we shared was like no other. I believe in this questionable world, a minute of encounter with someone makes a difference… matters. Short speeches, yet endless tales to tell. It’s like reading a short story, but your summary exceeds the length of the story. I played coy, but my heart filled with joy. Don’t get it wrong it was not a matter of “oh I’m in love” the feeling was different it’s a ” hey you are cool right now, I can dig it.”
Ironically his name is Showunmi, which for me is one big tease, I almost wanted to say yes. My guarded being allowed him to slowly reel me in, only for him to become distracted, or should I say focused, perhaps I was the distraction. Thus he let me slip, a little too fast…ouch. Now it’s almost like a forbidden bond, a bond I wish to transgress, slowly conjoining my soul to his. I hated it, questioned its existence, felt so wrong, yet so right.
Yea so I met a man, or should I say a man met me. A man who forgot he had a broken home when he met me. A man who selfishly triggered a feeling I haven’t felt in over a year, but then the man I met remembered his broken home needed fixing. My how my mouth fixed to say homes are broken in so many ways, so I held my tongue and my feelings.
The man I met, I do not regret meeting, I know why we crossed path, selfish as his reasons may have been, it worked in my favor. I met a oh so enjoyable man…that does not exist.
I feel.
I feel.
My feelings are never unwarranted, constantly awakened with a warranty…
An agreement with life, I blindly signed for. Deferred dreams, muddled reality.
Moment of bitter sweetness.
Dream asked ” Why has thou forsaken me”
Man answered ” reality settled in”
Dream said ” make me a part of your reality”
Man said ” I don’t know how”
Many dream, very few know how to breath life into it. They settle down with reality.
