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Fav pic of me n Shelly Shellz!

Fav pic of me n Shelly Shellz!

So I met a man or should I say he met me. Secretly he made my heart flutter, yet I pretended it didn’t matter. He danced around me with his words, aroused me with his lyrics. The distant intimacy we shared was like no other. I believe in this questionable world, a minute of encounter with someone makes a difference… matters. Short speeches, yet endless tales to tell. It’s like reading a short story, but your summary exceeds the length of the story. I played coy, but my heart filled with joy. Don’t get it wrong it was not a matter of “oh I’m in love” the feeling was different it’s a ” hey you are cool right now, I can dig it.”

Ironically his name is Showunmi, which for me is one big tease, I almost wanted to say yes. My guarded being allowed him to slowly reel me in, only for him to become distracted, or should I say focused, perhaps I was the distraction. Thus he let me slip, a little too fast…ouch. Now it’s almost like a forbidden bond, a bond I wish to transgress, slowly conjoining my soul to his. I hated it, questioned its existence, felt so wrong, yet so right.

Yea so I met a man, or should I say a man met me. A man who forgot he had a broken home when he met me. A man who selfishly triggered a feeling I haven’t felt in over a year, but then the man I met remembered his broken home needed fixing. My how my mouth fixed to say homes are broken in so many ways, so I held my tongue and my feelings.

The man I met, I do not regret meeting, I know why we crossed path, selfish as his reasons may have been, it worked in my favor. I met a oh so enjoyable man…that does not exist.

I feel.

I feel.

My feelings are never unwarranted, constantly awakened with a warranty…

An agreement with life, I blindly signed for. Deferred dreams, muddled reality.

Moment of bitter sweetness.

Life is one big tease, the only thing is I’m not amused…

Happy bday Malcolm!

Dream asked ” Why has thou forsaken me”


Man answered ” reality settled in”


Dream said ” make me a part of your reality”

Man said ” I don’t know how”

Many dream, very few know how to breath life into it. They settle down with reality.

My silence is not defeat. Rather the opposite.

What is so wrong with embracing who you are. If you have to question your position in life, your no different from society’s accusing eyes.

How dare they ask me to fashion my life after written words in a book.

Thank Allah for friends who actually get me.

I’m surrounded by awesome people. Gotta see the good in people. Their purpose.